Crucifying KaЯmina BuЯana

This is fucking ridiculous, if they keep bringing me souvenirs I’m never finishing them. I'm between this two for my cousin's sweet 15 birthday party. I'm liking the pants outfit better... it's not like a formal thing anyway, but I'm afraid the jeans are not very appropiated for the occasion anyway.

Ben doing this all day, five dozens of souvenirs for my cousins sweet 15 this saturday. I am glad I'm done with this shit... really. But they turned out quite cool, didn't they? and I did my nails because all the work fucked them up. Frenchies, because sometimes it's good to feel like a girl.

It's my cousin's sweet 15 today. My mother gave me money to give it to him as a present; ut she made this hideous blue envelopt sealed with a fucking plastic tape. Bery classy, mom. I tried to fix it... is it any good?

Somebody lock me the fuck in and tie me in my bed so I can't get out and spend money. Today I got this two pinky/nude lipsticks.... but why? And then I spent more money eating a waffle! (but this totally worth it because I haven't eaten a nutella waffle since forever; but now I feel really bad (NOT) that I broke my personal diet of eating healthy). Then I went to this store where I usually buy clothing and got myslef two bluses... there goes my money... And then I found this blazer in a very expensive boutique... and I bougth it. Now I'm broke.

My aunt took me shopping today. We went early to this huge mall. She wanted to buy me something for my cousin's birthday party next sunday. But I couldn't find anything, and I mean really ANYTHING. My aunt strated to losing it, I was calm because I'm used to not finding things in my size. But my aunt was really LOSING IT. Normaly I'm a very self aware person about my size so I don't tend to get angry. But as we walked all day long I got more and more tired, the pressure of my aunt, and not finding a single thing really got me down. I don't get mad if someone calls me fat because I am fat; but listening to my aunt in every single store yelling "I need something big for my fat niece" it really got me pissed at the end of the day. Because I was depressed I bougth this purple wallet just because I didn't own a purple one. I spent my money just because... and it made me feel better. I am never going shopping with my aunt again

There is a strange reason for which my aunt thinks I love crepes. I don't really love them, I don't even like them. But I'm afraid if I say something I'm gonna hurt my aunt's feeling. She's always so happy when she cook them. So I just shut up and eat.

Yesterday I started to assemble the souvenirs for mu cousin’s sweet fifteen. He’s giving watches. I think it’s cool.