Crucifying KaЯmina BuЯana

I put another flower to another shoe! Now I can wear it! It has been of a box for years because I never send them to fix… Now I fixem with some spare fabric and super glue! For free! Woooooo!

I drank two big BIG glasses of iced coffee with Bailey's... so not sleeping tonight. I am super hyper and can't burn my enegry of calm down my anxiety by dancing like crazy alone in my room because I have a back ache and my rigth knee is being a bitch. Besides, the mother of my dear friend from college texted me at 2:00 am telling me her daugther just gave birth... and feel so damn guilty because I do not feel not even a little happy for her. I am a horrible person. I am deeply concern about the bad state of my nails because of the terrible manicure I just gave me. My concience it's restless. This just confirms how terrible person I am. I am so nervous that I'm hurting my fingers again ripping off the flesh around my nails... it hurts and can't stop. I need help. I have a huge fear going on for a few days by now... I am not really sharing it but if it's true I'm jumping from the highest bridge in the city. And not even joking. Not a single...

After almost six months with the same pair of contacs I just bougth new lenses! They came in this cute little golden box in the shape of a cube or something. I just thougth it was kind of funny that they wrote “Magically… Lustful eyes.” with and incexplicably excess of commas. Apprently they’re an italian brand, but still that does not exclude them from their punctuation mistakes. I got them ligth blue this time, they are kinda fantasy looking but I chose them instead from the grey ones because they were much darker for my taste. I used to buy the perfect shade of grey lenses, but that brand apparently doesn't ship anymore to this country; they lasted up to a whole year or even more if you took good care of them. I loved them.  This ones I've been buying lately are disposable, and last up to four months, but after six mines are still in good shape, it doesn't even bother nor itch my eyes yet. Still I decided to buy new ones because well... just in case.  ...

Just found my black gloss from my youngster goth days… it’s terribly hideous, no wonder I had forsaken it into the bottom of a drawer.

I just made fabric roses to bring back to lofe these pair of old shoes. I know it’s not nearly the same shade of grey; but I still like how it worked out. I really LOVE my new old shoes.  

Last week my cosin's wife wrote to me saying that in the school of my little cousing there was going to be a concert of the Sinfonic Rock Orchestra of the Simón Bolívar Conservatoire; and asked me if I wanted to go.  I thought why not... I felt trully as a lover of music since I didn't know anybody there: nor the musicians, nor the attendants. I am used to know at least some band members of the gigs I go to.   I went with my brother because he likes almost that kind of music as I do. I thought he wouldn't like to go because he's been hooked on online games lately; that so he doesn't even leave the house anymore. The show was amazing, that little orchestra is the leaving proof there is so much talent in this country.  The only thing I could say I didn't like that much was some of the kids singing... no ofense, but no rock voices what so ever. For the rest, they were amazing, I had a really good time.    They played:  ...

LOVE today’s make up and nails… that tomorrow are gonna get messed up because I’m going to my swimming lessons. Oh well… gonna go to bed now because I am so tired… I am not sure why.