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Yesterday I went to a friend’s to have some drinks that are taking its toll… I feel terrible… Still I had to go visit, at the maternity hospital, my good friend from college who had her daughter last thuesday. It’s such a huge baby for a newborn. That’ good I guess… Her name is Selene.

My brother’s out, so I’m sleeping in his room tonigth. I’m watching tv, wearing his t.shirts and drinking more coffee… this is my version of Friday night fun!

Strange people on the subway complemented my make up today. I might do a video tutorial then… you know, the lame ones I upload on Youtube…  Might…

Dinner time! I really like my dinner today: Casabe (a typical venezulean kind of cracker made of yuca, the trunk of a bush), a granole and turkey ham salad with passion fruit sauce, an iced coffee with Bayley’s (why am I drinking coffee at 9:30 pm? Apparently because I hate myself) and a banana as a dessert.  This post is so pointless. Also I really like my outfit today wich was a simple white blouse and black pants and sweater… am I silly or am I silly? It must be the lightbolt… and the necklace I never use for some reason… and I have no idea why my tits look so ridiculously big in this picture. I go tto wear my new old shoes too! The ones I fixed putting a big pompom flower where the button fell. I have had these shoes in a box for more than a year and never got the to get fixed; but I did it myself and that makes me happy.   It rained and my feet got wet and dirty... and they gave me little blisters, but still, yay! In another news I swallow...

I put another flower to another shoe! Now I can wear it! It has been of a box for years because I never send them to fix… Now I fixem with some spare fabric and super glue! For free! Woooooo!

I drank two big BIG glasses of iced coffee with Bailey's... so not sleeping tonight. I am super hyper and can't burn my enegry of calm down my anxiety by dancing like crazy alone in my room because I have a back ache and my rigth knee is being a bitch. Besides, the mother of my dear friend from college texted me at 2:00 am telling me her daugther just gave birth... and feel so damn guilty because I do not feel not even a little happy for her. I am a horrible person. I am deeply concern about the bad state of my nails because of the terrible manicure I just gave me. My concience it's restless. This just confirms how terrible person I am. I am so nervous that I'm hurting my fingers again ripping off the flesh around my nails... it hurts and can't stop. I need help. I have a huge fear going on for a few days by now... I am not really sharing it but if it's true I'm jumping from the highest bridge in the city. And not even joking. Not a single...

After almost six months with the same pair of contacs I just bougth new lenses! They came in this cute little golden box in the shape of a cube or something. I just thougth it was kind of funny that they wrote “Magically… Lustful eyes.” with and incexplicably excess of commas. Apprently they’re an italian brand, but still that does not exclude them from their punctuation mistakes. I got them ligth blue this time, they are kinda fantasy looking but I chose them instead from the grey ones because they were much darker for my taste. I used to buy the perfect shade of grey lenses, but that brand apparently doesn't ship anymore to this country; they lasted up to a whole year or even more if you took good care of them. I loved them.  This ones I've been buying lately are disposable, and last up to four months, but after six mines are still in good shape, it doesn't even bother nor itch my eyes yet. Still I decided to buy new ones because well... just in case.  ...