Crucifying KaЯmina BuЯana

Today I had a terrible menstrual pain and still decided and manage to get out of bed, make my homework and go to class... just so when I step into the classroom they'd tell me the class was suspended due to some kind of personal issue with the teacher. I even took cake for my classmates because of courser I am a piece of charming lady (and they asked me to feed them everyday). Anyhow... today was a total waste of makeup, but still have a lot of cake to eat by myself.

This was my very first perfume ever... so it has probably more than 15 years old. Now it just smell weird. I don't have any preference with Cinderella at all; and the bottle it's nearly empty. So while I was cleaning my room, I just threw it away. Now I'm expecting to have some sort of feeling... yeah, right.

" Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out your normal healthy ability to cope with bad days and bad news, and replaces it with an unrecognizable sludge that finds no pleasure, no delight, no point in anything outside of bed. You alienate your friends because you can’t comport yourself socially, you risk your job because you can’t concentrate, you live in moderate squalor because you have no energy to stand up, let alone take out the garbage. You become pathetic and you know it. And you have no capacity to stop the downward plunge. You have no perspective, no emotional reserves, no faith that it will get better. So you feel guilty and ashamed of your inability to deal with life like a regular human, which exacerbates the depression and the isolat...