Crucifying KaЯmina BuЯana

I'm gonna be a Transvestite from Transexual Transylvania.

Today I went to my brother's friend, Melchor, to hang out a while. Luckily, his sister, Gaby, was there so I wasn't that bored after all. She gaves us chocolate cacke and I ate two burgers earlier... Now I have to work out A LOT tomorrow. She's cool, we said we'd do a lot of things together like... she would teach me how to bake cookies and I'd show her how to do cupcakes; we would go to my brother's gig, I invited her to my Halloween party (wich I plan to be Magenta or a Transexual Transylvanian... but most importantly, she said she's got a Nintendo 64 back home and I have Mario Kart! I'm fucking playing Mario Kart again soon!

Yesterday my mom went to the flea market for Christmas shopping (yes, in in October because she's crazy and obsessed) and she got me these! Yay!

Yesterday we went to my dear best friend house, Vanessa, to have some pancackes with icecream and Nutella… but mostly because she just broke up with her (six years) boyfriend. It was so pathetic, she is soover him.. actually she was over him a year ago. We had to hear the sad/funny story of how the guy lots all of his dignity. I do not feel sorry for him and I’m happy for my sweet friend. I eat so much... I feel so guilty, gonna have to be very stric with my diet this upcoming week. It was a nice nigth, I ate two of these... but as always there was something bothering me, as muh as I try not to pay attention to it. Last month, or less, we were at some other friend birthday, and I met this guy and I thought I liked him, you know, nothing too special. He wss nice, funny, and because of that I decided to maybe hit on him because it's time to have my chance of oerhaps being with someone. But yesterday,m after my friend told us the ridiculous story of her breaking up, she said to us tha...

Today I went to the nutriciounist again and I have lost 3 Kgs in two weeks! Yay! I still want icream and Nutella tho.

This is me in my therapy. It's all I've been doing all week... and it's not like somebody pays attention to me in there. Whatever I just want to get trought this. I am convince that torture is being practiced there after I’m gone.

This whole week I’ve been doing my therapy sessions. I don’t think hey know what they’re doing… they barely speak to me, unlike the previous theraphy I went to, where they gave me recomendations to keep my spine healthy in my everyday life. I just want to get over this… I still have seven sessions to go. Yes, I have to go to my therapy sessions with make up on. And yes, I have to go to the gym with make up too.

I almost forgot, last Monday, two months ago, I had my spine surgery. It seems so long ago; I’m amazed by the fact that I almost have a normal life even that I had two disc removed from my spine and two prosthetics placed instead. I did a little excersice yesterday and I felt good. Maybe I can run again soon! I am sure that even my doctor got impresed by all the people that was waiting for me to come out gfrom my surgery. My family is big, what can I say; but this moments really show me that they love me so much, and I love them back even more. I was even impresed that friends of my cousins came to visit me. But then everybody wanted to get a picture with me moments after I left the operation room… they’re fucking nuts…

But I failed. What can I say.

and Rammstein!

I been in a lot of pain lately, so yesterday I texted my doctor who called me freaked out and told me to do an emergency X-ray and then go see him. So this morning I got an X-ray again. The pain in my spine and my legs makes made me think I’m slowly transforming into a centaur… but no, my doc told me they’re making my therapy wrong. So I’m gonna be in pain for some days… and next time I’ll go to therapy I’ll slap that bitch; ok maybe I won’t but definetly not do everything theu tell me to without calling my doc first.

So I went to the nutricionist... bassically I have to eat what I have been eating so far minus the candy a sweets. And I have to eat fruit and vegetables every single day. Let's see how long I last without boring myself to death by eating fruit and vegetables daily. I don't really like fruits, not even juices. She said that my ideal weigth is around 70 Kg. wich is fucking ridiculous because I am 1.80 mts and not really the small type. I am now 109 K and it's imposible for me to lose 40 kgs, I don't even want to lose that much weigth! It's just stupid. For now I¿m supossed to get to 92 K (wich is a lot less!). And I would be happy and totally healthy with that.

I got my laptop back! Apparently they fix the problem… I also told them to put a new N in my keybord since I lost the last one; well, they replace the whole thing and I had to pay so fucking much money. At least I have my computer back.

And migth be having some interesting dreams about him too.

This are my fucking friends and I. This is picture is su fucking perfect I can’t even stop cursing. Yesterday it was the birthday of our dear Stefanny, she turned 19, being the youngest of us. It was a cool night. I love all this fuckers so much. Some music and jelly shot is all that you need to keep me happy. Stefany invited to her party her sculture teacher, and he made this little fella out of the sticker from a beer.

I can tell my mom got really affected by the fact that we didn't live togeteher until I was 15. She came worked in another state but she came to visit us every weekend and all Christmas long. But now my little cousing and godson is sleeping here tonight, it's past his bed time and supposedly my mother tuck him in bed but then she told him to go to her bed and lay with her until he got sleepy. Now he's sleepy but my mom keeps asking him silly questions to keep him awake; she asks him to kiss her constinuosly and she tells him "I love you". And there's nothing wrng with this. As I can recall my mother never, EVER, has told us, to my brpther and me, that she loves us; nor has asked us for kisses. Never. I know that my mother loves me, and seeing her with my little cousin makes me wonder what's going on inside that head of hers. What bothers me is that I have absolutely no problem with being cold with my mother as I have always been. I'm 23 now and I h...

I’m at the mall with my aunt, we were supossed to be watching green lartern in the movies but it ran out as soon as we steped in. Now were’re gonna see this movie with Bradley Cooper (not a big fan). We have to wait a couple hours so we are walking around the stores and I already bougth a necklace… Gawd stop meeeeee! This was me blogging around 6:00 pm.

I really hate baking in those silicone molds, it ended up sorta plastic texture.