Crucifying KaЯmina BuЯana

My mom bought me fake tattoos today. Do you think she would get mad if I tell her she’s giving me ideas? My mom is shopoholic, and sometimes I just don't know if it's a good or a bad thing. We don't really celebrate Halloween here, although I really like how I was dressed today. But if we would, I'd love to be a La Catrina! Let's hope my best friend birthday is Halloween themed. She turns 24 a day after El día de los muertos.

My Magenta costume was a total failure. However I had a great time yesterday. Even made a new friend. Today I'm just fucking depressed. Fuck evertbody, honestly.

I went to the nutricionist, and in almost a month I have lost 5 Kg. Even with all the pizza, burgers and booze consumed lately. So I celebnrate by eating chocolate cake a a bag of Cheetos.

So I bake him a chocolate cake and cupcakes!

It's just a major mess.

I just arrived home from another gig of my brother’s band. It was ok, not really great because of the shitty backline they hired. In another news, I think my crush kissed me one the lips by mistake when he we were saying goodbye. I say “I think” because it happened so damn fast… I do really think it was a mistake, a simple misplaced of lips. But he did asked me if I arived well at home. So… I better not oerthink this anyway (all of this is so complicated because it’s one of my brother’s good friends). In another news I woke up ridiculously early for a Sunday. So, as it was my uncle’s birthday, I decided to bake lemon cupcakes because they’re his favorites. AND my mom surprised me today finishing my Magenta costume for Halloween! Yay!

Yesterday, while I was in my englics classes, my brother's best friend asked if I wanted to do something at nigth. I said it was a bit complicated because I was arriving home after 9:00 pm; but then he said he was going to be picking me up from my house as soon as I arrived. This is still very strange to me, so much interest, when I barely go out with them. So, I arrived home and then I got a call from this guy, the one I have a crush on, from my brother's cellphone; and he told me they were on their way. I have this tiny funny idea that maybe he was the one who had the idea of inviting me. I wouldn't really know. We gathered, listened to music, sang, chat, and drank. we were kinda drunk. I was hoping something "special" happened... but nothing happened, at all. He did nothing. Now I guess is because it was me, him and my brother... till dawn. When it was time to leave there was a heavy rain going on, I was freezing, but then he gave me his sweater and then hugged...

So this ramdom guy gave me his phone number when I was on my way home on the subway… this is happening to me often. I have to stop whatever I’m doing wrong.

Catalogs... Why my friends has to do this to me? And I have already bougth an exfoliant lotion, a facil tonic, a lipstick, two cutting boards and a cone for wastes… and I don’t even cook.

Me happy.

Drunk again, secong week in a row. Another birthday party this Saturday, I swear I'm not gonna get drunk, I won't be at home and I just can't keep doing that to myself. Both times I have woken up past midnight feeling terrible... like dying. That fucking tequila, so disgusting a dreadful.

And I have no idea why.

This week I went with my brother to his best friend house. I thought I was a prty, but actually there were my brother and his friends with his laptops... almost the whole night. They0ve done this before, and I almost bored myself to death... but I went this time again because I kinda like this guy, not something extremely special, but if there is any chance I will take it and see what happens. But happens too that my life is a complete tragedy, nothing is going to happen ever and I migth just convert into some kinda priestess. Forever alone. But luckily, his sister was there and she pretty cool, so we talked lot; and she showed me how she's doing an embroidery of some logo. Cool. AND it wasn't a total lost... we had pizza! Yay! Then a couple of theur friends arrived and we sorta drank from this labeless vodka and played the most sick and bizarre mimic I have ever played. Really, is this dude had the slightly interest onme he would have leave the computer and, I don't know,...

Last Monday I had to take my cousin to the ER at 5 am because she had a chest pain. When we got there she started crying because she wanted to leave, then she started to complain about getting shots and studies they were going to make her... I just fucking HATE people like that. Bitch, I was up all nigth because of you and now you complain about everything... you want to get better or not?! ungrateful little brat (she's 19).

Yesterday my dear cousing turned 17. This is wnat it means a party in my house. I was so drunk by the second tequila. I didn’t stop there so I was pretty much wasted by 9 pm. Sad isn’t it. I woke up passed midnight feeling like hell.

My mom is so mad at me, and this is an under statement.

Today I had my second session of rehab in the pool… wich is basically learning to swing. Just an hour or so in the water and my back looks like this.