Crucifying KaЯmina BuЯana

Today has been a long day: I woke up at 6:30 am to do the make up of my darling cousin who graduated from chool today; then her mom, her sister and I attended to the graduation act; I finally got to use my polka dot hand purse with the closest to dots shoes I have. I'm happy because of this. That was an awful graduation act. we had tickets, but all the chairs were taken when we arrived. I asked politely to some teacher if he could get me a seat because I recently had a spine surgery... he said "It's not my problem". I then, very politely, replied: What is the sense to have tickets if you are terrible at organizing. Thank you for nothing. I will sit on the floor. And so I did; didn't get to watch a thing... and the speech of the "best student" of the promotion was hideous, it looks like they were terrible students and they have no intentions in keeping that as a secret. That's me and my cousin, I love her deerly. I oly have a twin brother so I conside...

I don't care 'cuz you're gonna see it anyway. Today I went to my first therapy session... 45 min later they charge me 200 bucks. RiDICULOUS. My therapist told me I have to walk everyday for 30 minutes and wear my corset TIGHTER! Are you kidding me. And then I had to buy three more creams for my scar and two more bottle of pills for my diet. I'M NEVER GETTING SICK AGAIN, I've just decided.

My aunt got me some pretty cool vintage earings! I so love them!

Why I keep wasting money I don’t have!

The doctor tok my staple off… now I got a nasty scar left… it’s not gonna be pretty in the future; but I till gotta wear this thing. Bugger!

I had no idea what shape they were when they were on, but now they're little M's.

Apenas conectándome a Internet una amiga publica esto: Una pequeña tarjeta que le di en su cumple hace como dos años... y aún la conserva. Qué hermosa... made my day.

What am I doing painting my nails at midnight? Why can’t I find them?! WHY. This is ridiculous… I guess I can’t be fully myself without the sleepless nights, right?

When a Doc tells you you’re gonna be taking a pill that’s gonna get you very VERY sleepy you imagine you’ll be kinda dead until next morning… not just only dizzy for 15 minutes.

I went to the doctor today and he did not got my surgery staples off... that kinda pissed me off, only "kinda" because my doc is an adorable old joker. So I let it be because he told me I'm an amazing healer. On Monday I gotta go back and luckily he'll take the staples off then. Meanwhile, guess what: more pills. Not amused. He said this has the second effect of feeling like drunk. So I'll take one now expecting to pass out.

I didn’t got the staples off my back today, the doctor says it’s still too soon… Meanwhile my lovely and adorable cousin is making me a pie. So I’m just sitting here cutting the peaches for my pie… My cousin told me to write something in the pie cover so I wrote BAZINGA… What?… And she made this It's done and delicious... new baker in the making.

Since I really can’t turn this is the best shoot I can get of my wound and staples. That’s gonna leave a really big nasty scar, not that I really care; but I just wanted to show this before I got the staples off tomorrow.

Definetly slept better last nigth, I only woke up a few times with the slightly scene I’ve been dreaming about Thomas Hampson, in wich case I would’t expect less than a dirty loud long dream. I actually could get my breakfast done by myself today even I still have cramps in my legs and dead toes in my rigt feet.

Isn’t it fun ho my body keeps turning againts me?

Yay!

I’m really in a bad mood because I have to wear this until fuck knows when.

Happy childrens day ya’ll. Starting the day with some pineapple juice… Disgustin juice… One good thing about being ‘sick’ is that you get spoiled, so my aunt got me this kinda glass necklace and ring.

It’s almost 7 am and I’ve been already up for three hours. This cramps in my legs aren’t really allowing me to sleep well. Now my lovely grandma made me a nice cup of coffee so I could feel like a half normal person. This is farly the most healthy breakfast I’ve had in a long time: grapes, a plum, integral bread with raisins and apple juice… APPLE JUICE… JUICE, you don’t understand, I do not drink juice… Ever. Now look what my crappy health has made outta me.

My surgery was a succes even I’m as sore as hell. I’m “alive” after two inter vertrebrae discs less and 15 clamps plus in a 20 cm wound. It doesn’t really hurt that much, what I can’t stand are the cramps in my legs, they’re killing me. SO FUCKING ANNOYING. That's me rigth after my surgery, my cousing gave me a huge balloon... but why... The first thing I ate was a really good vegetable soup ad the most disgusting jello on earth. Look at the motherfucking size of that wound. I swear I felt better the first day than what I feel now... everything hurts. They gave me this to sleep better... but I didn't work at all. I was very dissapointed. Honestly, the best part of all of this was the food. Really, it was so good. I thougth it was gonn abe a lame "food for sick people" menu, but really it was really yummy. I even got lasagna and ice cream one day.

This is one of the forms I had to sign to get the things all ready in the clinic before my surgery. It says: I exempt the clinic if I get pregnant in the future since this is a dangerous procedure. O.O That really makes you wonder what the fuck they do to you while you're passed out on anesthetics. Yesterday me all my friends got together at Vanessa's to have dinner before I get my surgery and mostly because we haven't seen each other in a long time ago. She made us lasagna! Yay! My favorite! It was nice being all togeteher just laughing and being happy. Like the old times. Vanessa also baked us a fuckiung delicious chocolate cake... You cannot believe how good this was. Then we sat and watched some pictures from my friend Vanessa's new short movie. Another friend showed us her paitings... this is my favorite one. AMAZING Finally we watched Ninja assasin til dawn… you know you enjoy watching a crappy movie with your friends.